What’s important

I usually don’t post stuff like this on my blog because I usually just hide it away in a journal somewhere.  But I guess today I’m being brave.  That and I have at least two more posts to bury this one under, so maybe most of you won’t even see it :)

I really like listening to Christian rock music.  I was getting ready for church this morning and listening to Casting Crowns on Pandora this morning when Slow Fade came on.  Because of a few things that happened this weekend this song really got me thinking this morning about what’s really important in life. 

We often hear that you can stand in one place, you are either moving forward or sliding backward, nothing is ever static.  This past weekend I’ve been even more grateful for the choices I’ve made up till now that have made my life, well, ordinary and boring (as in not exciting in bad ways)  Also the past few days I’ve been realizing that even though I’m not making bad choices some of my choices aren’t the best ones.  I’ve been realizing I need to learn to say no more often and that my kids and being a mom is the very most important thing in my life. 

I have this quote from David O McKay that says “No success in life can compensate for failure in the home”  My most important job is to raise my kids to know what’s right and wrong, to love Heavenly Father and Jesus, and all that other good mom stuff.  Anyway, that’s what I’ve been thinking of this week and then this song just kind of summed it all up for me this morning and made me think about it again.  I was going to highlight the parts I liked the best, but then I realized most of it would be highlighted.

Slow Fade

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade
Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking
It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day
Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

Thinking can be bad

So there I was this morning this morning sitting in my driveway.  I’d had a pretty long night at work and then stayed up to go to crossfit.  Crossfit consisted of bench pressing a very unimpressive but heavy to me amount of weight and then spending the next 20 minutes running laps alternated with ring rows as many as you can do in a row(ring rows are the cheater version of pull ups when you’re too big of a wimp for the real thing….unfortunately ring rows are hard for me!).  Anyway back to the driveway…I was thinking that I’d tried to hold up the phone to my ear to talk on it on the way home.  I was thinking it was a good thing the person didn’t answer the phone because my arm was too tired to hold it up that long.  And why is this important?….

Both kids were in the back seat asleep and I’m sitting there thinking if I can’t even hold a phone up to my ear, how the heck am I going to get the kids in the house?

Just a thought.

Ready for some days off

I've entered the realm of full-time work for the time being. In all actuality I take on enough extra shifts I'm not really working that much more, but maybe it's the thought that it's mandatory and not optional. One of the girls I work with is on bed rest with her pregnancy so I'll be working for her until she comes back from maternity leave.

I'm (as we speak) working my 4th shift in a row, which really isn't bad....normally. But this weekend (I know you're all thinking, honey it's Wednesday) has just been one of those where I walk around occasionally chanting "I love my job". Saturday night I started out with a code, who we saved and then lost. We had a transfer and a admit or two and this continued most of the night. Sunday morning my car wouldn't start...ya. It's 7:30 in the morning and all I want to do is go home and go to bed. Josh and Vaughn were kind enough to rescue me and fix my car.
Sunday night was more of the same type of busyness. Last night wasn't too bad except for the situation that required my full change of clothes mid-shift. That made me a little onery. Besides that I lost my long sleeved shirt in that full clothes change and I froze my butt off all night (the ER is freezing at 3 a.m.) and the fact that I'm an idiot and didn't take a coat so I started my car early so that it'd be warm. I decided I'd rather have my car stolen than be cold.
Then Tuesday (which is still today to me by the way) I got to hang out with Tracen and sleep while Josh was at work. It was great fun, I slept on the floor, Tracen crawled all around, pulled my hair, poked my eyes and then called a few people on the phone and breathed in their ears for a while. It was really cute when he crawed up and curled up next to me and took a 3 hour nap. The best news of all, it has been a great night! I think we've seen like 5 patients, the ambulance just transported to Beaver instead of here, it's awesome! And it's my last night. After this I have 8 days of non workingness until I do it all over again.

I love them

Love what? Coupons....yes, I love them. I've done a few versions of couponing and just keep getting more and more into it. Yesterday I spent about $120 on groceries etc and I saved $140 (so worth the $12 I've spent on newspapers so far). I only bought one thing that wasn't on sale, a package of m&m's for Ty (Jesse's tictacs were even on sale) I haven't really saved any money, because I didn't lower my food budget, but I could. Instead I buy stuff I would have never bought before like cereal in a box and frozen pizza. Ya I know it's sad I'm that cheap but I have a personal issue with spending $4 on a box of cereal that will last a day and a half if we all eat it for breakfast. Now I NEVER spend more than $1.50 for a box, and that's stretching it. I only spend that much if I really need cereal.

The boys love it too. They love having the cereal with toys in it (the important stuff here guys) and fruit snacks, and granola bars. All that good stuff they always ask for and I used to say no. Ok well, now they ask for stuff that's not on sale and I say no :)

Yesterday I bought pizza, cereal, granola bars, chicken nuggets, frozen veggies, shampoo, carpet cleaner, and a bunch of other stuff but I wouldn't have bought any of the stuff I listed. Ok now I'm hungry so I'm going to go look for something to eat.

Computers hate me

Me and computers and Christmas time just don't mix. Two days ago my computer was working and yesterday it wasn't. Hate that. This is the second computer I've had die during the holidays. The last one was only 2 years ago too. So luckily my dad bought a 3 year warranty on the computer when he got it before I inherited it. So it's off to never never land to be fixed, hopefully, although I have to say I have never been impressed with Best Buys ability to fix anything, so we'll see.

And just for my future reference, Tracen went to his 6 month appointment on Monday he is officially 22 lbs 8 ounces, 29 inches long and his head is 18" around. This keeps him above the 100% on height and weight. His ear infection appears to be gone now. He absolutely LOVED the paper on the bed at the dr's office and pretty much had it shredded in the amount of time it took the dr to leave the room and the nurse to bring in the shots. For Christmas we're just going to buy him a roll of that.